My thoughts, love and prayers for you daddy..

You never said I'm leaving

You never said goodbye

You were gone before I knew it,

And only God knew why

A million times I needed you,

A million times I cried

If Love alone could have saved you,

You never would have died

In Life I loved you dearly

In death I love you still

In my heart you hold a place,

That no one could ever fill

It broke my heart to lose you,

But you didn't go alone

For part of me went with you,

The day God took you home

******

On the 25th August 2000, almost 8 years ago, before the clock stroke midnight. That was 'The Day'. I can still recall the saddest day in my life when my dad died in ICU, Queen Elizabeth Hospital. He died of heart and kidney failure. Before he went into deep coma, I was the last person he talked to as it was my turn to look after him that day. We even talked awhile, seeing him in pain I let out some jokes and he smiled though he was in pain at that time. He asked me to keep his rosary, a silver made from Roma, and I did till today. He said he was thirsty and wanted to drink some water and I hold the cup firmly to let him sip the water and he looked at me and said "you must look after the family" This, till today I never reveal to my mum. It hurts so much just thinking one of the last conversations I had with daddy.

Hours pass-by, I didn't prepare myself for the worst that time, and when it suddenly happen, I got panicked and almost fainted. I was crying, crying calling my daddy, my throat hurts and of a sudden I was pushed aside to a chair, doctors and nurses took charge. He was then transferred to the Intensive Care Unit(ICU) and 4 days later, he left us. I couldn't stand, my limbs went numb, my thoughts were empty and tears flowing...

Being the only daughter, he showered me with his love and care. I love my daddy so much. I really missed having him around us. He was my adviser, he was my inspiration and he was the place I could talk to and let out my problems and misery I had and he would listen. Now he has gone forever, I look up the sky and say my prayer quietly for him and wish him Happy Father's Day..